My second two weeks at camp were just as breath taking as the first two, but in very different ways!
Thankfully my flights did not have much trouble and I made it to my next city with little problem. Of course, there was the fact that I did not really have to take that silly plane trip, but I didnt know that when I got the ticket! It would have been much cheaper, and probably faster {there were no tickets right to Xi'An from where I was, so I had to first fly past and go to another city, where I had to trade planes and then fly backwards to get where I was going.} for me to get a train. As it turns out, staff from the Xi'An camp had actually made the trip to Xin Zheng to spend the night and pick up kids at the local orphanage to bring them to camp at Xi'An. I could have traveled with them, had I known about it, but I am glad that I got where I did when I did, so it all worked out in the end.
Right away, I met the director of the Xi'An camp, as he was the one that came to the airport to pick me up. It was a nice ride to the camp. It was nice to have a chance to talk for a bit too. He gave me an idea of how camp was going at that location and I gave him a rundown of my first two weeks.
Soon as I walked into the hotel where we were staying, I was greeted by a “Are you Carm?” and when I answered yes, the asker said “Well, I just got a text from Becca she said to give you a hug from her, so here.” and I was then given a hug. I could have cried right then. It is rather interesting to look back once you have been through something, to relive the first moments. When I first met everyone there, just like at Xin Zheng, I could have not had any clue how much they would have all meant to me. They all did such a wonderful job of making me feel comfortable and back at home in the new setting.
For week three, I had a little boy named Liu Chong Yang. When I asked if he wanted an English name, he said yes so I asked if I could call him Louie. He said “You may call me Liu Chong Yang.” and anytime I gave another option he just repeated that I could call him his entire name. Heh. That week was a challenge for me. Out of all of them, it was the hardest one I had. Some of what made it a struggle is rather hard to put into words, or I just don't want to because it sounds bad! It did not seem my translator liked me, our little boy, or much of anything other than her cell phone and room mate. It also turned out to be a really great week as far as teaching me things and lessons learned. The Lord really used that time to remind me I had some patience problems that I needed work on. On top of the communication problems I seemed to have with my translator, Chong Yang was sick for the entire week. The poor little guy came to us with a stomach virus of some sort, and also had a bad case of car sickness. Sadly, at this camp, we had to drive to any of our activities....so before we could go swimming, do pottery, or play at the fountain, we had to take a drive of no less than half an hour. The poor little thing would throw up almost the entire trip. He loved the pool though! I felt rather bad when I was unable to join him in the pool on the second visit due to things beyond my control, and had to ask a staff member to watch him for me. {My translator did not want to enter the pool again.} Thankfully, Chong Yang liked guys better and so I think it was a bit easier for the male staffer than it might have been for a girl....but he was still a handful! He was not a bad kid so much as one that really like to push the limits and in many cases he was a normal little BOY! If you have ever spent much time around an 8 year old boy, you know how much energy they have and can understand how it might be a bit hard to keep an eye on him when you are not able to call out and give advice or commands or such! :D It was fun though.
In week four I had a family of four again! My translator was such a cutie and she and I had such great conversations. She was a lot of fun. Our girls allowed me to give them English names so that it was easier for me to remember what to call them. {It is a suggestion that is given right away, and when Dora, our translator asked them if they would like English names both said yes.} Just like with Brooke,I asked them what they liked best, and what kind of a name they wanted. The older of the two said she wanted to be named something to do with winter. I had met an amazing Chinese staff member at my previous camp, whos name was Icey. It seemed perfect and I thought it would be cool to give her a name sake. The younger one said she liked the autumn time.....and of course you have a name right there so she became Autumn. I asked them if they would give me a Chinese name and they named me Xia Tian, which is Summer! :) As a family we had so much fun! They were both so well behaved and were very loving and open to being hugged and loved on! Good thing too since both Dora and I loved to pull them each into a big hug at times! Icey was such a big help too! Early on we could tell that she was the one that looked out for the younger kids, Autumn being one of them, and Luise {their room mate} being another one. She made sure that both girls had their shower taken care of, hair brushed, clothing in the right place for the next day, and all ready for bed in the proper manner and time! It was uncanny how much Icey reminded me of Brooke, everything from her motherly ways with the girls, even down to her looks! I often had to keep myself from calling her Brooke! One day, on the way back from lunch, I asked the girls if they liked ice cream. Icey {Who often spoke for the both of them, as Autumn was a bit mentally behind and did not say much.} said they liked ice cream and had eaten it before. I was a little saddened, I will admit, that it might not be as much of a treat as I had hoped {she made it sound like it was something they ate often, which I found a little strange, but you never know!} but I asked if they wanted to get some anyway. They both agreed and each picked out a different kind when we arrived at the corner store before heading inside to get to our next scheduled activity. After her first bite, Icey's eyes got big and {through Dora} she told me she thought ice cream was something else, this she had never had! But she liked it a lot! It was cute.
Autumn did not speak much, but that does not mean she did not communicate! I grew very attached to her, very quickly, and found it very special when I was told it was believed she was part Indian {As in from India, not American Indian} I felt that God had given me my India right there in China! Soon, she began to mimic me and some of my 'silly' actions. She would place her hands on her hips and pucker her lips the way I did when I was pretending to be upset with her throwing a ball too far away for me to reach. Often, after giving me this little gesture, she would break out into a huge smile and laugh, or say I love you in sign language. {Early on in the week I taught both girls what it meant, and told that was how I would be able to always make sure they knew I loved them, even if we were across the room from one another, or the music was too loud. It became one of our families favourite things to do.}
When we put them on the bus, saying goodbyes, and giving last hugs, both girls had the same reaction as the rest of my kids over the past three weeks. They seemed ok with going back, and did not cry at all or anything. After they got on, I went around to the back to stand near the window where Icey was sitting {She too had a bad case of car sickness and said it made her feel better to sit near a window.} it was then that it hit her, I think, that Dora and I were not coming with her and that she was leaving. She began to cry then, as she told us both she loved us and handed us balloons she had blown up. It took a long time to get the rest of the kids settled into their seats and ready for the trip, so we just stood there watching each other, holding hands through the window, and giving each other the English sign for I Love You. I am told she cried for most of the trip back to the orphanage.
I miss everyone so much now. As busy as work keeps me, I still find I have far too much time online! I am trying very hard not to be a nuisance to the friends that I made, and so I do not write to them as often as I want to! Lol. If it were up to me, I would talk to them all everyday still!
I miss my kids, and they come to my mind at odd points throughout the day. Something will remind me of them, or I hear their names, or I see a child that looks just like them. As much as that can make me sad, I hope that does not change. Both in the instance of the kids and the friends that I made. I want to stay in touch with everyone who became so important to me there, and I want to always have a love and longing for my kids in China. When I think about it becoming easier to live without everyone I met there.....it makes me more sad than when I realize most of them are hundreds of miles away from me right now! The Lord taught me so much through all of them!
I miss you all. I love you all.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Recap one
How do you sum up a month of memories, feelings, ideas, and experiences into a blog? This is what I have been struggling with since I returned home a little over a week ago. I have had a hard time getting it all across when I tell people about it, using the same words “It was amazing!” every time when asked how my trip was. That just does not cut it. I know I could do more than one blog post, but even in more than one I am just not sure how to express what it is I want to.
I have yet to ask my family if they have noticed it, but I feel I have changed.
Keeping up with my normal ways, I started a journal when I went and got about one week into camp before I stopped updating it.
Anyone that got my email updates knows my flight into the country of China was an eventful one, and not all happy. Yet as soon as walked into the cafe in Xin Zheng, at the SIAS school where I would spend the next two weeks, the entire past day and a half melted away....and I was home.
The first week, I had two girls. Maggie is nearly 18 and is such a smart kid. Annie, my 17 year old buddy of the week was such a sweetie. I was not sure how the week was going to go, having two girls not even 10 years my junior, and who both spoke English! It was a pleasant surprise to get along really well as a family, and find things that we could help each other with or learn from one another even though we were not the typical BMH family group. We became so close, in fact, that we gave our family a name. Angel, Maggie, Annie, and I called ourselves the Glory Family. It was also this week that I met little Jennifer. She was one of the roommates of my girls and translator, so I spent a lot of time around her as well that week. She stole my heart, along with the hearts of many others there!
Week two saw challenges of its own, but turned out to be no less of a blessing than week one. The story of my little Brooke broke my heart and made me want to do nothing but hug her all week. That was not possible at first, as she was not comfortable with that much contact right off the bat. At our very first meeting, it was decided that instead of hugging her every time I saw her, which would have been my first choice to show my affection, I would hold her hand. You can imagine then how wonderful it felt when, by the middle of the week, she was grabbing for my hand and as she looked up to give me one of her winning smiles. Her Chinese name is Wan Jun, but when I asked if she wanted an English name she asked that I pick one for her that had something to do with water. After choosing Brooke for her name, my translator told me that her {Alyson, my translator} Chinese name meant Spring. How perfect is it then that my name means garden/fruitful? Don't those names fit perfectly? This week was really about the relationship with my translator, I think. We had an amazing long conversation after life charts one day. There were tears, lots of tears. It is something I am still in prayer over, and I'm looking forward to the program BMH has for keeping in contact with each other after. {It is set to start in a month or so and will give us topics to discuss and help us stay in touch, or at least open the door for you to start more.}
The staff at Xin Zheng, or the SIAS camp as I always called it, was fantastic! We had so much fun both with the kids and just as a group. We went on moped rides on the weekend, and hung out in the computer room, had wonderful conversations till early in the morning, and laughed a lot. When it was time to leave, I took it pretty hard.
{Stay tuned for recaps of weeks three and four.}
I have yet to ask my family if they have noticed it, but I feel I have changed.
Keeping up with my normal ways, I started a journal when I went and got about one week into camp before I stopped updating it.
Anyone that got my email updates knows my flight into the country of China was an eventful one, and not all happy. Yet as soon as walked into the cafe in Xin Zheng, at the SIAS school where I would spend the next two weeks, the entire past day and a half melted away....and I was home.
The first week, I had two girls. Maggie is nearly 18 and is such a smart kid. Annie, my 17 year old buddy of the week was such a sweetie. I was not sure how the week was going to go, having two girls not even 10 years my junior, and who both spoke English! It was a pleasant surprise to get along really well as a family, and find things that we could help each other with or learn from one another even though we were not the typical BMH family group. We became so close, in fact, that we gave our family a name. Angel, Maggie, Annie, and I called ourselves the Glory Family. It was also this week that I met little Jennifer. She was one of the roommates of my girls and translator, so I spent a lot of time around her as well that week. She stole my heart, along with the hearts of many others there!
Week two saw challenges of its own, but turned out to be no less of a blessing than week one. The story of my little Brooke broke my heart and made me want to do nothing but hug her all week. That was not possible at first, as she was not comfortable with that much contact right off the bat. At our very first meeting, it was decided that instead of hugging her every time I saw her, which would have been my first choice to show my affection, I would hold her hand. You can imagine then how wonderful it felt when, by the middle of the week, she was grabbing for my hand and as she looked up to give me one of her winning smiles. Her Chinese name is Wan Jun, but when I asked if she wanted an English name she asked that I pick one for her that had something to do with water. After choosing Brooke for her name, my translator told me that her {Alyson, my translator} Chinese name meant Spring. How perfect is it then that my name means garden/fruitful? Don't those names fit perfectly? This week was really about the relationship with my translator, I think. We had an amazing long conversation after life charts one day. There were tears, lots of tears. It is something I am still in prayer over, and I'm looking forward to the program BMH has for keeping in contact with each other after. {It is set to start in a month or so and will give us topics to discuss and help us stay in touch, or at least open the door for you to start more.}
The staff at Xin Zheng, or the SIAS camp as I always called it, was fantastic! We had so much fun both with the kids and just as a group. We went on moped rides on the weekend, and hung out in the computer room, had wonderful conversations till early in the morning, and laughed a lot. When it was time to leave, I took it pretty hard.
{Stay tuned for recaps of weeks three and four.}
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Just purchased my tickets
My how things can change in less than two weeks!!
Ticket prices went up for my flight to China, and I found out I had to pay for another trip inside the country. Due to these factors, I will not be able to afford the side trip at this time, so that will be done later. {My older brother got a job with VOM and will not be returning home in September as we had hoped. Dad, Mum, and the kids will be taking his things to him while us older girls are gone so Kade and I had wanted to go visit him at his new place. While the ticket prices were down, I could do it all for less that my budget, which now I am going to be pressed to get all of my China travel done for the money I have/will have.}
HOWEVER, I am still very sure this is where I am suppose to be going, and I KNOW 100% this is all in His hands, so if I have anymore troubles with money I know it is going to show up in the right amount of time! Don't think I have ever spent that much money on one thing though. That was a new experience! Mum and Kade were right next to me as I hit the 'purchase' buttons, for support and all ya know! :D
It is now midnight, way past when I said I wanted to go to bed! hee. There was a game tonight and it went into overtime. Then I actually did go to bed but something told me I should get up and search flights, and since my laptop was next to my bed it was easy to do. It was then I found the prices were starting to creep up again, and felt it would be the right time to buy them.
I am excited! As Kade said "Now you really have to go." {no returns on the tickets allowed. Guess that means that if I end up not being able to pay for camp by the deadline, I am going to be in China by myself for a few weeks! lol}
Silver Leaf starts the same day I am to leave Michigan and ends the same day I am to return. {KOI picked the RIGHT year to be the first they are not there, since I will not be able to attend at all.} There is a countdown on the website for openeing day, so I go there to see how long I have till my big adventure begins. {and I do mean big. You should see the flight plans I was sent. MY WORD. And that is not even counting all the fun and hubbub of camp. tee hee!! I always have done things big haven't I?}
How many days do I have?
65.
Thanks to all that have been praying about this up until now, but please do continue. I still have some money I need to raise and a deadline to have it by. {I know I can have the money by the time I leave, it is the months time I have to earn it right now that is at all a worrysome problem for me. And even then, it is only a fear when I take my eyes from where they should be.}
The first time I spoke to the director of Bring Me Hope, he told me he didn't know how many volunteers would be there in 2009. I replied with "Enough." as I knew the Lord would send as many people to the camp as would be needed. This is the same attitude I am using towards the money and deadline. I will have 'Enough' when I need it.
Is this what it feels like to be a 'big girl'?
Its fun! lol. {Still would rather have Gill deal with it all, but that should come later....perhaps}
Now it really is time for bed. Thankfully I do not have to be to work until 2, as I am working the closing Mall shift. However, I have gotten little sleep in the last few days and I do not see much in my future after tonight. {Was up for work at 5 Tuesday, didn't get a nap in like I had planned, walked 2 miles, went to bed at 1:30am after the game, got up at 5 for work on Wednesday, got about an hours worth of a nap in, and will be staying up for a game Thursday night that has a 10:30 start time. I may not be the coolest person, but I sure know how to fill a day, don't I?}
Ah, the things we do for the stuff we love.
Thursday plan:
Sleep...work....watch Ducks smash some Sweden to D-town, red tinted transplants.
God is good! :D
Ticket prices went up for my flight to China, and I found out I had to pay for another trip inside the country. Due to these factors, I will not be able to afford the side trip at this time, so that will be done later. {My older brother got a job with VOM and will not be returning home in September as we had hoped. Dad, Mum, and the kids will be taking his things to him while us older girls are gone so Kade and I had wanted to go visit him at his new place. While the ticket prices were down, I could do it all for less that my budget, which now I am going to be pressed to get all of my China travel done for the money I have/will have.}
HOWEVER, I am still very sure this is where I am suppose to be going, and I KNOW 100% this is all in His hands, so if I have anymore troubles with money I know it is going to show up in the right amount of time! Don't think I have ever spent that much money on one thing though. That was a new experience! Mum and Kade were right next to me as I hit the 'purchase' buttons, for support and all ya know! :D
It is now midnight, way past when I said I wanted to go to bed! hee. There was a game tonight and it went into overtime. Then I actually did go to bed but something told me I should get up and search flights, and since my laptop was next to my bed it was easy to do. It was then I found the prices were starting to creep up again, and felt it would be the right time to buy them.
I am excited! As Kade said "Now you really have to go." {no returns on the tickets allowed. Guess that means that if I end up not being able to pay for camp by the deadline, I am going to be in China by myself for a few weeks! lol}
Silver Leaf starts the same day I am to leave Michigan and ends the same day I am to return. {KOI picked the RIGHT year to be the first they are not there, since I will not be able to attend at all.} There is a countdown on the website for openeing day, so I go there to see how long I have till my big adventure begins. {and I do mean big. You should see the flight plans I was sent. MY WORD. And that is not even counting all the fun and hubbub of camp. tee hee!! I always have done things big haven't I?}
How many days do I have?
65.
Thanks to all that have been praying about this up until now, but please do continue. I still have some money I need to raise and a deadline to have it by. {I know I can have the money by the time I leave, it is the months time I have to earn it right now that is at all a worrysome problem for me. And even then, it is only a fear when I take my eyes from where they should be.}
The first time I spoke to the director of Bring Me Hope, he told me he didn't know how many volunteers would be there in 2009. I replied with "Enough." as I knew the Lord would send as many people to the camp as would be needed. This is the same attitude I am using towards the money and deadline. I will have 'Enough' when I need it.
Is this what it feels like to be a 'big girl'?
Its fun! lol. {Still would rather have Gill deal with it all, but that should come later....perhaps}
Now it really is time for bed. Thankfully I do not have to be to work until 2, as I am working the closing Mall shift. However, I have gotten little sleep in the last few days and I do not see much in my future after tonight. {Was up for work at 5 Tuesday, didn't get a nap in like I had planned, walked 2 miles, went to bed at 1:30am after the game, got up at 5 for work on Wednesday, got about an hours worth of a nap in, and will be staying up for a game Thursday night that has a 10:30 start time. I may not be the coolest person, but I sure know how to fill a day, don't I?}
Ah, the things we do for the stuff we love.
Thursday plan:
Sleep...work....watch Ducks smash some Sweden to D-town, red tinted transplants.
God is good! :D
Monday, April 27, 2009
Updates
Hey,
I know I have not been my usual blogging self...and that is not for lack of things to say, just for lack of the motivation to write them. This is a very sad fact, as there has been a lot going on.
I got to go to a Stanley Cup playoff game in Detroit last weekend {as in the 18th of April} and it was so much fun! I got to go with Kade and Mum, the latter of whom had only just been to her first ever NHL game not two months before! The team I was hoping to win did not in the end win, but it was a very enjoyable game anyhow.
Savings for China are coming along SWIMMINGLY!! In fact, as things stand right now, I nearly have enough for all of it, and have even been able to tack on another small trip at the end. {meaning I will be flying somewhere else for a few days after China} I am very excited for all of it and can't wait for the time to get here.
Now that the sun seems to be shining more often, I am going to be able to get back to my walking, wich is a very good thing indeed. My back has been hurting a lot more and I have been having a harder time getting rid of it. This can, and DOES, often put me in a not so good mood, or just shorten my wick a bit. Somedays I don't even notice it really. It is not until after I have blown up at someone that I realize things are not right, and it is then I feel just how much my back hurts that day. {NOTICE: I am NOT saying this gives me the right to be in a bad mood, for those of you reading this who have been on the recieving end of one of said blow ups.} The weight also complicates things with my PCOS which is really not good. Things were so much better when I was at my lower weight, and I am in a very big hurry to get back to those days! heh.
Work has been hard to figure out. lol. One week I am told I will no longer be working at the mall, then I am told I will be again but only one day a week rather than two, then one of the mangers from the mall is moved back over to our 'stand alone' store and another co-worker is moved over to the mall. It is all very back and forth.
My plan when I woke up this morning was to head out on a long walk right away, pick up something to eat, and just walk for a nice long time. However, things changed so now I am going to eat here, and THEN take off for a long walk. It should be a nice time, as the sun is VERY bright today.
I know I have not been my usual blogging self...and that is not for lack of things to say, just for lack of the motivation to write them. This is a very sad fact, as there has been a lot going on.
I got to go to a Stanley Cup playoff game in Detroit last weekend {as in the 18th of April} and it was so much fun! I got to go with Kade and Mum, the latter of whom had only just been to her first ever NHL game not two months before! The team I was hoping to win did not in the end win, but it was a very enjoyable game anyhow.
Savings for China are coming along SWIMMINGLY!! In fact, as things stand right now, I nearly have enough for all of it, and have even been able to tack on another small trip at the end. {meaning I will be flying somewhere else for a few days after China} I am very excited for all of it and can't wait for the time to get here.
Now that the sun seems to be shining more often, I am going to be able to get back to my walking, wich is a very good thing indeed. My back has been hurting a lot more and I have been having a harder time getting rid of it. This can, and DOES, often put me in a not so good mood, or just shorten my wick a bit. Somedays I don't even notice it really. It is not until after I have blown up at someone that I realize things are not right, and it is then I feel just how much my back hurts that day. {NOTICE: I am NOT saying this gives me the right to be in a bad mood, for those of you reading this who have been on the recieving end of one of said blow ups.} The weight also complicates things with my PCOS which is really not good. Things were so much better when I was at my lower weight, and I am in a very big hurry to get back to those days! heh.
Work has been hard to figure out. lol. One week I am told I will no longer be working at the mall, then I am told I will be again but only one day a week rather than two, then one of the mangers from the mall is moved back over to our 'stand alone' store and another co-worker is moved over to the mall. It is all very back and forth.
My plan when I woke up this morning was to head out on a long walk right away, pick up something to eat, and just walk for a nice long time. However, things changed so now I am going to eat here, and THEN take off for a long walk. It should be a nice time, as the sun is VERY bright today.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
Guess what!!
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Half of Friday.
Thats all I have to wait.
Booya!
Hockey here I come.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
A big mess
You know how, in order to clean UP a mess, you have to make a bigger mess? Yeah...well, my problem is I get to where the mess I am cleaning up has gotten way bigger, and I decide I no longer feel like cleaning.
This is where I find myself at this very moment.
The hockey game was not televised by either team tonight, so we ended up listening to it on the radio. {meaning I was pretty much lost for 73% of the time, as I do not do well listening to a game.....I need to watch it. "Wha? They got a goal? When? Who was on the ice? How did my D-man do? He got hurt? When? Ha ha, biscuit!" yeah...it is not a pretty sight. This is why I love Center Ice. But anyway!} So as I was listening to the game, I began what I thought was harmless pick up of my desk. However, in order to get the trash heap off my desk and put in the proper places, I must clean out those places from the trash that I piled in them the LAST time I cleared off my desk.
Somehow, this lead me to not only cleaning off the top of my desk, but also the containers I have on one of my desk shelves, all the little drawers and such on my desk, AND my shelves in the furnace room. At this very moment, the bottom shelf of my desk is empty with everything laying on the floor instead, I have an entire garbage bag full of junk to be taken out in the morning {"Or....probably not." Yay for hockey related quotes at 11pm!} I have found the necklace set I made for a friend......a friend I see very little......a friend who was here just a few days ago and yet I managed to NOT be able to find it while she was a here, I have about three years of letters and cards from one of my best friends, all nicely filed and in order now, the furnace room shelves are reorganized and looking good.....but my desk top is a mess.
My desk top is a mess, and I want to go to bed.
But I have a pile of stuff behind me that needs to be put away.
A pile of stuff I have been ignoring for the past twenty minutes as I visit all the usual sites, update my status at facebook and myspace, check hockey scores, and write a useless blog.
A pile of stuff that really is suppose to be back in my desk, so that I can go to bed.
A pile of stuff I can not leave there.
Have you ever, while cleaning up, found something that you remember buying, but have no clue why? I found something like that tonight. Six dice. Different dice, of different shapes, sizes and colours. A purchase I remember making about three years ago, but do not know why as I have NEVER had the occasion to use these six numbered...well I would call them cubed but they are not all that shape! I mean really, what do I need with a blue marble die that has numbers like 20, 50, and 90? I got them at a gaming shop when it was going out of business. Why was I not stopped by the people shopping with me?
And now they sit, on my desk, as I ignore a pile of stuff and junk behind my desk.
And I am sniffing from the dust I have kicked up while cleaning.
Ah, what a mess.
This is where I find myself at this very moment.
The hockey game was not televised by either team tonight, so we ended up listening to it on the radio. {meaning I was pretty much lost for 73% of the time, as I do not do well listening to a game.....I need to watch it. "Wha? They got a goal? When? Who was on the ice? How did my D-man do? He got hurt? When? Ha ha, biscuit!" yeah...it is not a pretty sight. This is why I love Center Ice. But anyway!} So as I was listening to the game, I began what I thought was harmless pick up of my desk. However, in order to get the trash heap off my desk and put in the proper places, I must clean out those places from the trash that I piled in them the LAST time I cleared off my desk.
Somehow, this lead me to not only cleaning off the top of my desk, but also the containers I have on one of my desk shelves, all the little drawers and such on my desk, AND my shelves in the furnace room. At this very moment, the bottom shelf of my desk is empty with everything laying on the floor instead, I have an entire garbage bag full of junk to be taken out in the morning {"Or....probably not." Yay for hockey related quotes at 11pm!} I have found the necklace set I made for a friend......a friend I see very little......a friend who was here just a few days ago and yet I managed to NOT be able to find it while she was a here, I have about three years of letters and cards from one of my best friends, all nicely filed and in order now, the furnace room shelves are reorganized and looking good.....but my desk top is a mess.
My desk top is a mess, and I want to go to bed.
But I have a pile of stuff behind me that needs to be put away.
A pile of stuff I have been ignoring for the past twenty minutes as I visit all the usual sites, update my status at facebook and myspace, check hockey scores, and write a useless blog.
A pile of stuff that really is suppose to be back in my desk, so that I can go to bed.
A pile of stuff I can not leave there.
Have you ever, while cleaning up, found something that you remember buying, but have no clue why? I found something like that tonight. Six dice. Different dice, of different shapes, sizes and colours. A purchase I remember making about three years ago, but do not know why as I have NEVER had the occasion to use these six numbered...well I would call them cubed but they are not all that shape! I mean really, what do I need with a blue marble die that has numbers like 20, 50, and 90? I got them at a gaming shop when it was going out of business. Why was I not stopped by the people shopping with me?
And now they sit, on my desk, as I ignore a pile of stuff and junk behind my desk.
And I am sniffing from the dust I have kicked up while cleaning.
Ah, what a mess.
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