Please

Tell me what you're thinking
Tell me what you feel
All the things you're saying
Are they even real?
Why pretend you're happy
When you're so very sad?
When put on a fake front
When you're so very mad?
I know the way to fix you
All the answers that you seek
But you choose not to hear me
You think that I am weak.
You think I am just joking
And you dont know I pray
That someday you will find Him
And the sadness go away
So Lord please tell me what to say
And tell me what to do
So one day this young friend of mine
Will give his life to you

Fading To Blue

I feel it all tumble
As my world begins to crumble
Hard to breath, can't even think
Walls close in, start to shrink
Tears are making my eyes blurry
Try to find footing, I must hurry
Things that I once thought I knew
Now all seem to fade to blue
Close my eyes and count to three
Pray back to normal soon all will be

The pain still deep...but now has changed

~@~ You Changed ~@~

The Love that I once felt for you has changed to something new.
The pain of loss has been replaced with worries now for you.
You changed so much before my eyes and with that, new emotion
Sometimes it seems you are not you, with not the same devotion
The tears at night no longer for the fact you do not know
Instead they mourn a friend so dear, who lost some of his glow
My mouth is shut, I will not say the thoughts I scream inside
Since if you heard, I do not doubt, you would run away to hide.

Voices inside like I'm never alone

Yet when they are gone I'm alright.

Soon they come back, in my mind make thier home

I feel like I'm drowning, no light.
I know I'm not crazy and will soon be okay

But the pain is so deep and the feelings are real

And simetimes one second is more like a day

Wish I could turn off and no longer feel.
Traped in my head is the way it seems

When anger and joy rule my brain

Like an old attic with cobwebs on beams

Yet then they are gone washed in rain.

To our Soldiers

Sitting here trying to hold back the tears
As I think about people who all through the years
Have braved through trails and over come fears
Those namesless figures with the unkown faces
In far away countrys and such distant places
The tankers and bobmers and hight flying aces.
These days thier faces arent namesless at all
Their Franklyn and Thomas, Joshua and Paul
All people who heard it and answered the call
My family, my neighbors, best friends, new brothers
Who'd all be home safe if I had my drothers
Though I hear them saying, just like many others
"I'm needed here now, Lord please protect me.
Never forget us when down on your knee
Someday I'll be home, when these people are free."
They come back as men, though the left us as boys
Not soon gone the days, of playing with toys
The laughter and singing replaced by the noise
Of loud gunshots ringing, of fires and pain
Homesickness and sadness all for the gain
To make sure the others died not in vain
Lord give them courage, and strenghthen each hear
tThough from all thier families, they are now apart
Help those that love You, show how great though art
Be with my friends, God, who fight now for You.
Remind them in Your name, all things they must do.
And make sure they know, that we love them too


2am July 14th

Still Hurt

In dreams we see in dreams we do
Yet when we wake they're gone
Night by ngiht we fall asleep
Forever they will go on
Why is it hard just to stand
Yet easy so to fall
Why when dreams can hurt so bad
Do we dream at all?
Yet bigger still the question is
Why do I let it bother
Since months ago I thought it done
I'd given it to the Father.

Amy Carmichael 1867-1951

From prayer that asks that I may be
Sheltered from winds that beat on Thee,
From fearing when I should aspire,
From faltering when I should climb higher,
From silken self, O Captain, free
Thy soldier who would follow Thee.
From subtle love of softening things,
From easy choices, weakenings,
(Not thus are spirits fortified,
Not this way went the Crucified,)
From all that dims Thy Calvary,
O Lamb of God, deliver me
.Give me the love that leads the way,
The faith that nothing can dismay
The hope no disappointments tire
The passion that will burn like fire,
Let me not sink to be a clod:Make me
Thy fuel, Flame of God.

In this world I walk alone

with no place to call my home

But there’s One who holds my hand

on the rugged road through barren lands

The way is dark, the road is steep

but He’s become my eyes to see

Strength to climb, my grief to bear

the Savior lives inside me there

In Your love I find release,

a haven from my unbelief

Take my life and let me be

a living prayer, my God to Thee

Through these trials of life I find

another voice inside my mind

It comforts me and bids me live

inside the love the Father gives

In Your love I find release,

a haven from my unbelief

Take my life and let me be

a living prayer, my God to Thee

Take my life and let me be

a living prayer, my God to Thee

People say there is a spot

Somewhere deep in each girls heart

To fill, I wonder, if it is allot

How do I know when I've found that part

As a child things seemed so easy

He would come and spot would fill

Has that happened and why I feel queasy

Is it time to know and why I feel ill

Is that spot going to go away

Have I now found that magic key

Why still not a question no light or ray

Until all is open and known to me

For guidance I pray and hold to hope

Please grant the wish now written in pen

The strength shall I have to with truth cope

Pray I shall do and wait I must, till then

I don't know

And don't like how that feels

I don't know

Maybe it isn't real

I don't know

Makes me sick inside

I don't know

Want to run and hide

I don't know

Is it all in my head?

I don't know

But it's late, time for bed.

In my dreams it all comes true

For in my dreams you love me too

In my dreams the pain is gone

Dreams all fade with coming dawn

All my dreams are filled with joy

Its because of that one boy

While my days are filled with sorrow

There is hope yet for tomorow.

I lost my one true love today and he didnt say goodbye.

I should not be surprised by this, since he never did say Hi

In my dreams I planned a life of which he never knew

And now it seems that all those dreams, never shall come true.

Oh How quickly prayers can change

And how wide the pleas do range

First I prayed Lord let it be

Please Lord Please let it be me

Then I prayed Lord let me know

Tell me please which way to go

Then it was Oh Please Lord No

Do not say that it is so

Now I ask Lord fix my heart

Mend the seams now torn apart

Song challege given by my sis.

The challenge was to hash lines from a selection of 14 songs together, to form a new something. Here are the three I have done so far:



How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that
There is no Arizona No pained desert,no Sedona
If there was
I was trapped in a castle tower
Locked up in chains
I waited for my prince to save me
Dancing on the tightrope, wearing it thin
That's what I had in mind,
When I said
I'm trapped inside this ordinary life
I was never really breathing My heart was never really beating
That's how you know
You're dodging the moon and I'm playing it safe
And in this labyrinth, where night is blindY
ou make time stand still .....
And I'm loving every minute



And with that first kiss I felt my life beginning
Anywhere at all There's nothing I've got that I wouldn't give
The house is filled with so much love
It was just another story written on the second page
There's going to be a little one and she says it's time to go
That's how you know it's love
So thankful for every day
And after everything that comes and goes around
The world starts to spin again, you learn things you didn’t know then
Cling to the Father and his Holy name



He promised her a new and better life,out in Arizona
But he never came
He's there
Stand in the eye of the hurricane
Sounds like a scene from the silver screen
There's a long black train comin' down the line
And the world stopped spinning
The courage of just 18 years
Take the very breath you gave me
These times are troubled and these times are good
But I can't do this anymore
And no matter how I try
Dancing on the tightrope, wearing it thin
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad

"Days" by Carm H

Days can trickle

Days can flow

Days can saunter

But all will go.

"True" Ryan Cabrara

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

Song "Falling into Love" sung by Dana Glover

Hold on my heart

Remember what you've been through

Be still my soul

And let yourself be renewed

You've been here before

So tell me what i must do

Don't lose your way'

Cause I'm following after you

And it feels like Im falling into love

ICan't believe what i feel like

Falling into love

I'm falling into love

Why do I smile when there's no one else around

These butterflies well they can't seem to settle down

Oh it feels like I'm falling Into love I

Can't believe what I feel like

Falling into love

Oh it feels like I'm falling for the first time

I can't believe that its real life

I'm falling into love

Oh I'm falling in to loveIf

I am dreaming please let me never awake

la la la la

And it feels like I'm falling into love

I Can't believe what i feel like

I'm falling into love

Oh It feels like I'm falling for the first time

I can't believe this love is real I.

.I'm falling into love

I'm falling into love yea

Falling into love

Falling in falling in falling in

I'm falling into love

"I Just Couldn't"
I wanted to tell the whole world
About my love for you
But I just couldn't.
I wanted to dance my love
Sing it or write a poem
But I just couldn't.
I dreamed a fantastic dream
Of me in your arms
And a long warm kiss.
I wanted the cat to answer me back
When I held her and called your name.
But she just couldn't.
I tried to tell my little sister
About my love for you
So that her big eyes could look at me
The way I wanted you to
But she was asleep so
I just couldn't.
My folks say I'm too young
To be falling in love.
I tried to change my heart
To make it stop thinking
About you so much.
But I just couldn't
I wrote your name on all the pages
Of my diary.
I took a letter I wrote you
To the mailbox----
But I just couldn't.

-Hasna Muhammmad-

Iii-ntair-estink!!!

I just looked at the stats for this blog! Here, take a look at some of these numbers:


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Now what does that say to you? Know what it says to me?? I talk too much!! OY!!!